Never Here

You were there

Close, warm, and there

You gazed right into me

You lavished me

I sensed you

You were there

And then…

You were not

I woke up

My heart cried

My arms felt worthless

My eyes wished blindness

A dream

I woke up and dove into reality

You were a dream

Consciousness spoke to me

Screamed at me

Shook me until I lost every drop of warmth you gave

Naturally

Of course

Your existence could not have been real

My rhetoric knew of it

Denial always won though

I shall never fall back into that hole

That dream… that nightmare

You are not real

Love, you were never here